Tired of answering!

You know what....I really hate to receive your messages recently. 

Tired of your messages. 

Traumatize with your message. 

Stressful when receiving your message. 

Exhausted in reply your message. 

Lazy to reply your message. 

There is no fun, no spark, no joy in our conversation. All it is just boredom. BOREDOM!

     Everytime, when i saw yr name poop up on my phone, i can already guess what is it. The first question is always "what are you doing there?" why must u ask me what am i doing now. just tell me what do you want me to do for u. Do i need to report what i am doing for the moment. I really dont know why i really really hate this question. not only tired of answering the question but also wasting credit. then, i will reply nothing...just watching movie, Fb-ing, about to sleep or bla bla bla. (without emotion). why why why? why i feel stressful everything messaging with you? 


     All we talked about is homework, assignment, and all those issues that i have talked about since foundation...such as sleepy la...tired la...can't concentrate la....go HK la...those boring topics....it doesn't mean i don't like you in person. i just feel that we have no much things to talk about in the message. maybe face to face, it is ok. abt assignment, of course it is important to discuss about it. But can you be less authorise. some time, i felt that i am just your follower. i think everyone in the class will think that i am your parasit. your burden. Seriously NO offence toward her, may be just me myself had changed. 


     Really sometime, i want to tell you my story. You should be the first person I shared my story with. just for example, the story of si Jacob. I really think i have the responsible to tell u becoz we are the closest friend. BUT, i dont know why, the feeling just changed when i want to tell you. I don't have the mood to tell you. I TRIED K. but everytime, i want to tell you something personal, i feel that you are not interested. you seem like more interested to share your story. or link my story to your own experiences and end up the focus is YOU! 


     For example, when i talked about my bobby last time, you pula busy talking about you dog, where you dog jump to bite those clothes, or my mother doesnt allow him to enter la...and bla bla....it is not that i dont want to interupt, but sometime it is too much. 


     At some moment, all i want is listen to me. But most of the time, you give lots of your opinions. and your opinion is try to convince everyone to believe you. as if you r very knowledgeable. this is not what i want. very simple, just listen and give SOME sincere opinions. That all. 

May be these are not her fault at all. May be it is me. 

I AM THE ONE WHO HAVE CHANGED.