Holidays and post-holidays

This will be my last entry before i am off for a camping 2moro. It would be better for u not to read this entry as i will talk about so many things that are rather not important to u...haha...

First of all, i officially declared that i wasted my 2 weeks holiday. yeah, you think...this is not the first time, i always wasted my holidays doing nothing, but sleep, eat and watch dramas. Almost every morning i woke up at least 10 a.m. Get myself clean up, and have my brief breakfast, and sit in front of TV (astro) sharp at 1130-1230.  1230, i will have my lunch lagi. and go back to my seat at 1 p.m again. at 2 o'clock, i will rush back to the back (another TV- Palabola), watching Korean drama until 545. at 6-7, there is another drama at astro. haha...this is how i spend my afternoon and evening everyday...and late at night, i will watch series on my laptop while doing my assignments (kononnya)...And usually fall asleep at 3 a.m...but so far, the assignments that i have completed during the holidays are the angry bird's reflection and report and PBS portfolio. That all. 

Then, i have my most pathetic birthday. I purposely hide my birth date on FB to test how many people are really care and remember my birthday. As expected, ya...only a few people remember. The first person who wished me birthday is Michelle, then, Emily and finally Miley. And also Fiona who gave me a birthday card and present this morning. Thank Q so much to them. & my family pula wished me the next day....And....Mas and the rest did not wish me at all...ya la ya la...may be they are busy...or who am I la for them to remember my birthday right. so, (breath in deeply), ya, it is ok. I Don't want to care about it anymore la...:( 

Anyways, i want to share the song Michelle made for me: 

Original tune: This is my song for you 

Happy Birthday my dear, 

my wish to you, 

long lasting happiness i wish to you, 

may you get what you want, 

may god bless you! 

And now, i am preparing for the BIG program 2moro. It is a 3 days 2 nights trip to SMK Tarat, Serian. We will be staying with foster family. Honestly, i am rather worried as one of my partner is Akma. She is scary to me...huhu... Never mind, take this as a new experience and a challenge. hehe...Hopefully the school and the family will treat us nicely. And pray for everyone's safety throughout the journey. 

August Plan

Yeah...End of PBS and my holidays, my August holidays is coming. I should be happy and enjoy myself for the whole week, becoz i know i got plenty of works to complete after this week. I can't imagine how busy we will be after the holidays. Busy with the assignments, BIG and KRS Camping some more. tsskkkk....it will be super duper hectic.

Thus, there are a few things that i want to do during this holidays. 
1. I want to MUST learn driving. It has been a year (i guess) that i have not drive a car. in this one week, i must learn to drive, not only at our housing, but at least to 7th or 10 miles. Wish me luck! 

2. I must complete some of the assignments. now, in my target are the EDU assignment (those summaries for assure model) and writing lesson plan. though i don't have any idea how a writing lesson plan look like, as Miss Yus never teach / show us any of it. but i need to work on it. as least a draft will do. 

well...let me think....what else i want to do....emmmm.....

3. How about swimming again? haha....this is my favourite...i want to go to kompleks sukan again next week...may be wednesday? this time with my brother, sister and mother i guess. 

Celebration

     It is a happy day...that we have done with our micro-teaching without any "terrible, horrible, bad" bombard from Mrs Lim. She just pointed out certain things that we are not aware of during the presentation. 

     After that, we went for a simple celebration at the spring. the main purpose was to celebrate Miley and Michelle's 3rd anniversary. Although it was just a small secret recipe's cake, but it brought us lots of fun and joy. we enjoyed taking pictures together, don't even care what others think about us at the moment. All we have are just the memorable moment together. Though i have a conflict with mas yesterday (more to personal conflict), but it was all been freezed out so that i wouldn't spoil the joyful environment. 

Don't you think it look like a family photo?

Olympic

God, Please help Dato Lee to win the match today. He really works hard throughout his badminton life. Please let him win the First Gold Medal for Malaysia. Let him makes Malaysia proud and shine at the Olympic. He is our hope, Our Star!

Tired of answering!

You know what....I really hate to receive your messages recently. 

Tired of your messages. 

Traumatize with your message. 

Stressful when receiving your message. 

Exhausted in reply your message. 

Lazy to reply your message. 

There is no fun, no spark, no joy in our conversation. All it is just boredom. BOREDOM!

     Everytime, when i saw yr name poop up on my phone, i can already guess what is it. The first question is always "what are you doing there?" why must u ask me what am i doing now. just tell me what do you want me to do for u. Do i need to report what i am doing for the moment. I really dont know why i really really hate this question. not only tired of answering the question but also wasting credit. then, i will reply nothing...just watching movie, Fb-ing, about to sleep or bla bla bla. (without emotion). why why why? why i feel stressful everything messaging with you? 


     All we talked about is homework, assignment, and all those issues that i have talked about since foundation...such as sleepy la...tired la...can't concentrate la....go HK la...those boring topics....it doesn't mean i don't like you in person. i just feel that we have no much things to talk about in the message. maybe face to face, it is ok. abt assignment, of course it is important to discuss about it. But can you be less authorise. some time, i felt that i am just your follower. i think everyone in the class will think that i am your parasit. your burden. Seriously NO offence toward her, may be just me myself had changed. 


     Really sometime, i want to tell you my story. You should be the first person I shared my story with. just for example, the story of si Jacob. I really think i have the responsible to tell u becoz we are the closest friend. BUT, i dont know why, the feeling just changed when i want to tell you. I don't have the mood to tell you. I TRIED K. but everytime, i want to tell you something personal, i feel that you are not interested. you seem like more interested to share your story. or link my story to your own experiences and end up the focus is YOU! 


     For example, when i talked about my bobby last time, you pula busy talking about you dog, where you dog jump to bite those clothes, or my mother doesnt allow him to enter la...and bla bla....it is not that i dont want to interupt, but sometime it is too much. 


     At some moment, all i want is listen to me. But most of the time, you give lots of your opinions. and your opinion is try to convince everyone to believe you. as if you r very knowledgeable. this is not what i want. very simple, just listen and give SOME sincere opinions. That all. 

May be these are not her fault at all. May be it is me. 

I AM THE ONE WHO HAVE CHANGED. 

Regret?

REGRET? I think I am not. BIG NO NO! 

     Remember the guy that i mention early? Yup...i texted him on 22nd July...early early in the morning and i TOLD him...i told him that he HAD attracted my attention during form 6..out of so many guys in my school, ST JOSEPH some more...he was the only one that caught my attention. 

He is not handsome, but smart. 

He is not talkative but when he talked, he is humorous. 

     I don"t know what are the special criteria on him that attracted my attention so much. Since form 6 until 22nd July, he was the only guy that I like. Like not love! I never consider other guys though some are smarter, handsomer, cuter or bla bla than him. 

     But i am grad that i finally told him what i felt.It took me 5 years just to express my feelings toward him. I told him bcoz i don't want to regret this for my lifetime. If i didn't tell, i will keep holding to it. and hardly let go. 

Finally....Finally....

     So, now, I officially declare that i am single and available. My heard has a space for someone else to fill in. But, remember, I am not DESPERATE. Just let it be. Don't worry for being single. Becoz I believe in GOD. I believe that He is looking at me and says "I am saving this one for someone special". I believe that he will eventually come one day!