What happen to me recently? i really have no idea...last time, since foundation until last semester, i always do last minutes works...if there is a presentation 2moro, i will wait until the last night,,,do it together with mas or my group members...i don't feel worry, i am not scared. & I DON'T CARE!!!
But now, i am scared! for these few weeks, i always want to do the slides first. i can't wait for my group members to have the discussion the night before? i am worried if the slides are not done, i can't really sleep well, i keep thinking of it....and now, i prefer to it alone. Faster and save more time. I don't like to do it last minute and i hate discussion recently...why why why? how come become so coward?
For example, for mr t presentation 2moro, after i woke up this morning, i straight away turned on my laptop and started reading the notes. my anxiety increased. and suddenly miley cames to ask for the photos yesterday and realised that i was doing the slides...i told her abt my changes recently..she said it is only MR T ba...why so worry...u r KIASU...am i really become so kiasu? i know that i should be happy fort the positive changes..but i clearly understand that these changes are not intrinsic...it is extrinsic...am i Kiasu? coward? OR i try to impress someone in the class? Did i? if yes, then WHO?
Even myself can't explain these? who else you think can help me? Haizzz :(
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