Distance!

This would probably my last entry before I sit for my exam. 

What happen to us? I seriously feel that you are no longer in my first page of life in my heart. In directly, I have decreased your rank in my list. Your position is no longer there anymore. I feel like you are just a normal friend to me. 

Just normal, nothing special anymore. 

 I don't know why...When I'm alone, I think a lot. I think of us for this semester. But flipping through those memories, I can hardly find a wonderful memories together. Most of the memories are "not good", bad or terrible memories. The more i think, the more bad side of you revealed. 

Your selfishness, your attitudes, your remarks and your actions. 

Sometimes, I just can't stand it. I really can't! Sometimes, I really stressed out because of you. Your carelessness and your ego and your sensitiveness! Most of the time, I need someone to share these problems with me. But if i tell others, what will they think? Will they believe? Other might think that I am an evil and hypocrite friend that I talk bad of you...things happen and Only me know! The HELPLESSNESS that I have to face most of time! 

The sadness, the furious-ness, the angry-ness, the sorrow and the pain! 

Luckily this semester is coming to an end soon, if not, I really don't know how to face you every day.  The distance that get wider and wider. The conversation that getting more and more general. The action that getting less and less intimate. The smile and laugh that getting more and more fake. You make me Learn to act, talk, smile and laugh hypocritically. 

  

I learn to play my role well, though sometime, 

there are loop holes here and there! 

But what is yours? Did you make an effort? 

p/s: I'm not in the condition of emo! This is true, true for me! 

Excited!

Exam is coming soon. And well, as usual, I am not well prepared yet. So many to read yet so little time left for us. Worried, Nervous and Anxiety! But some how, i get excited! Abnormal ha! ya, I did looked forward for this exam! First, it is because after the suffering of 2 weeks, then, we are ready for our Penang trip. The first time travelling alone without any accompany by family members. Excited! Besides, I am excited that i am going to see him again throughout the weeks! Struggling together! haha, yeah! :) 

Quarrel

Two people quarrel, 
The first one to say sorry
Doesn't mean he/she 
Give Up, 
Surrender,
Give In, or, 
Forgive. 

But, 
He/she appreciates &
cherishes the relationship more than the other. 

Annual dinner 2012

Annual Dinner 2012 

Theme: Walk down memory lane 

Attire: Black & white 

Reflection: 

Somehow, I like this annual dinner, although I didn't buy a new black dress, didn't slim down, didn't do my hair as planned and haven found my "partner" yet...But i still enjoy my wonderful night with my awesome classmates. I took lots of pictures with them, no matter in the hall, outside the hall or in the toilet. :) :) I also "cuci mata" by looking at the people wearing nice nice dresses. I also saw "him", just sat somewhere nearby...haha...The only disappointed part is that we didn't manage to take a class photo. :( 

So-called-class-photo. Actually..is The "Leftover" 

Ladies in black

with Mr. Why Me

Babydolls....where?...eee...in the toilet. 

I look obviously short . haha. 

with mimi :) 

err...no name for this grp...how abt...

"the happy swimming team"

The powerful number ONE

A powerful number: ONE 1

One....
One tree can start a forest
One smile can begin a friendship
One hand can lift a soul
One word can frame the goal
One candle can wipe out darkness
One laugh can conquer gloom
One hope can rise your spirit
One touch can show you care
One life can make the difference
Be the ONE today.

But on the converse side of the coin
One bunch of individualists can wipe away the entire forest
One lie can ruin a thousand truths in any friendship
One wrong hand can lead to endless massacres
One sharp tongue can scar the feelings of another person
One candle can burn down the entire house
One laugh may be perceived as sarcasm even with the best intentions
One hope can be crushed easily by circumstances
One touch of kindness may be wrongly accused of ulterior motives
One life can be put to an end within a split second

One teacher can make a difference, but,
One teacher who fails to teach can ruin the pupil's entire life.

Clear Up

It is rather a joyful day. Not because we went to the Spring, eat the Foochow mee that i have been missing for a month, tapao KFC and try on tasty pretzels, but clear up my problems. Talking about my problems with miley for a few hours last night really made me feel better (although i didn't tell her everything) and listening opposite point of view from michelle clear up the problem. 

Really appreciate and thankful to my friends for taking the problem seriously. It is rather touching to have friends like these, who make the efforts to clear up the conflict. Thank Q so much. May be i have been overacting throughout the problem, do apologize me. 

Just my simple thought: How abt my closest friend? She basically ignored me o...acted like nothing happened yesterday. & the first msg she texted me after the conflict is just regarding mrs Lim's task. :(